I cracked my fibula in my left leg getting a ladder knocked out from under me on the job when I used to do commercial/industrial heating and air over two years ago and in the time that I was on "injured reserve" so-to-speak, I gained up to 285lbs., actually that's how much I weighed after I'd been working out two-three weeks, so I was probably really closer to 290-295lbs. After I got let go from that company a little while later, I started helping some friends of ours operate a gym here in town where I live and I lost back down to 240-245lbs, depending on how many Miller Lites I had partaken in the previous weekend.
Although I shed 40+ lbs in a little over two months, I still couldn't get my stomach and "love handle", (or "muffin tops" as they are referred to nowadays), area to lose down to where I wanted it to be. I was SO proud of shedding the weight, but frustrated at the same time about still having the gut chub going on. Then Leslie got pregnant and I started putting the weight back on. I honestly think some of it is fluid weight, because my leg still swells from the injury two years after the fact, but mostly I'm just getting to be a fat body again. I'm not back to the 285lbs., but I'm a very hefty 265lbs.. It almost all settles right in my gut and butt, which is already big enough, even when I'm not overweight. For some reason God saw fit to give me a woman butt. Most people tell me that they can't tell I'm that big because I'm tall, but I honestly think they are just trying not to hurt my feelings.
Oh how I long for the days where I could eat and drink whatever I want, and never put on a pound. Up until I was 26 years old, when I quit smoking cigarettes, I was between 200lbs. and 210lbs., and you could see every muscle in my stomach, but immediately after I quit smoking I put on 20lbs., you could still see my abs, but I was noticeably "thicker". I stayed at 220lbs. though for three years or so, until my wife got pregnant with our first child. I gained up to 270lbs, but lost it pretty fast when I started a 3rd shift warehouse job, and was working out with a friend 3 days a week also. I put on weight with my second child also, but not quite as much, and again lost back down to my 220lbs. within a couple of months.
I don't know what the difference is this time, unless it's age. I have actually continued to put on weight even though I'm still working out. I'm dumbfounded, and just about to hang it up and eat and do whatever I want, and not worry about it anymore. I know one factor is that we've eaten out a lot more since Leslie had the baby and has been recuperating from her "c-section" and getting her tubes tied at the same time. She hasn't been able to stay on her feet for long periods of time to cook much, although she has probably more than she should. It's hard to keep her down, even when she's supposed to take it easy, she's a super-trooper!
I am going to give it another last ditch effort and try to do it right, and hopefully shed some of this unwanted chunkiness. I was on a tuna kick when I lost all the weight before, so I guess I'll stock back up, and TRY to make it into the gym more than once or twice every couple of weeks. After 12 hour shifts, it's rough working out and on days off there seems to be so much other crap going on, but I'm going to drop the excuses and give it one last genuine effort.
I'm going to state it publicly that way I can't back out, I have an obligation to get my priorities in order for my health if no other reason, not to mention the psychological aspect of being tired of feeling like a fat slob. I have three kids who I want to be able to play and be active with. I don't want to be the old, fat dad, I want to be the old, healthy dad that all the kids want to hang with. I can't do anything about the "old", but I sincerely hope that with a little work I can accomplish the "healthy" part.
I didn't intend for this to be a rant on my fatness, but when I finally get a chance to sit and write, my mind just goes on it's own path and my fingers follow. Hopefully in the future I'll have some positive weight updates to post in with my regular, more interesting ravings, but until then send those positive vibes my way, because I'm going to need all the help I can get!