Okay...I'm back, had to get some things straight in my head, not saying they are, but nevertheless I'm back.
I am ready to assume my role as the Captain of the U.S.S. Blogonnia again.
In the world, Nobama got punked by Putin, my first week of fantasy football was AWESOME with a last minute win thanks to my flex player, (Owen Daniels TE, Texans), college football is in full swing and Alabama came back and beat Johnny Football and Texas A & M 49-42 in a barn burner that I didn't get to see! Oh well, thank God for Youtube highlights!
We spent a long overdue evening with some good friends and got to finally unwind for the first time in a while, which was very therapeutic. I have an immense admiration/love for the Miller family that have been a constant in my life in one way or another for almost 20 years. There's nothing like real friends to bring life into focus during times of uncertainty. I still believe that quality time with true friends is the cure to almost any ailment known to man.
The fact is, if it weren't for friends, (my wife Leslie included, because obviously she's my best friend), and my big brother Bryan, I would've probably thrown in the towel a LONG time ago! I've made a couple of new friends in my new job lately that have become an integral part of my everyday life. One fellow almost close to my age that is as laid back as they come, (Johnsie), a younger female version of me that's cooler than the other side of the pillow, (Jenny), and a crazy-as-hell-keep-it-real-ALL-the-time-dude, (Jason), have unknowingly helped me center myself into my everyday life. Good people, all the way around.
I know I ramble about friendship probably more than anything else, but to me, next to my immediate family, (wife/kids), there's nothing more important. Throughout my life, if it weren't for one friend or another, I would've been devastated several times.
I'm trying desperately to transition to "adulthood" as seamlessly as possible, but I hit snags along the way. Most of which are personality quirks, and personal convictions that I hold tight to for better or worse. I wish someone would've written a handbook on how to do this responsibly and as painlessly as possible, but I'm afraid there's no such thing. Maybe that's how I should make my first million dollars, I'll write a "how-to" book on growing up...I made myself laugh on that one!
There's SO much to find happiness in as an adult though, when I allow myself to see it, especially in my own home. The smile of my 15 month old baby when she's playing, or watching something she enjoys, or wants a little "daddy time". The insistence of my 9 year old girl wanting to show me her latest dance routine she's worked out with her friend, or my 14 year old trying to act all grown up with his knowledge of firearms and things he knows I like. Let's not forget Leslie, my anchor, my beacon of light. Pretty much anything she does is pure awesomeness. She puts up with my moody bullshit, lets me be me, allows me to have a life that a lot of other married guys can only dream of. Oh, and she's one of the best cooks I've EVER known! Basically, life is REALLY good and I should be ashamed of my sometime self-loathing and private pity-parties.
I have a little thing that I say before I go to sleep, no matter what time of day it is, or what kind of shape I'm in, I NEVER go to sleep without saying this one simple phrase to myself and God in my head- "I love my wife, and I love my life, thank you God for my wife and thank you God for my life!" I've been fall-down drunk or exhausted from hours of work or whatever, but I always say this one phrase to myself and the big guy before I fall out without fail!
I hope this marks a return of
D-mans Blog of Useless Rantings and Ravings, or Possible Pearls of Wisdomand can help some other weary, troubled, or just bored travellers along their journey of life.
So just for no other reason other than the fact that sometimes we all need to cut loose and just kick up our heels and let our "Irish" out, I'll leave you with one of my favorites from Flogging Molly.